What is a retreat?
A time of calming and refreshment,
maybe an opportunity to reset,
and a gathering up of practices and experiences we can look back to and draw upon.
Afterwards, we sometimes miss the rhythm of our retreat days. And that rhythm is so different from the algorithms that push and shove to shape our lives.
Perhaps a deeper sense of meaning was stirred by our shared contemplations and silence. Maybe we want to keep that sort of meaning nearer the surface of our daily living.
During our time at Valle Crucis, we considered a Christianity that is closer to the earth than is sometimes modeled. Most Christians’ lives and practices have probably been closer to the earth than ours tend to be in 21st century America. Far from being outliers in this interest, we are arguably returning to the mainstream of Christian traditions by pursuing a more holistic orientation.
To the extent that we participate in the liturgical year, we are already aligning our commemorations of the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus with the seasons of the year in a powerfully symbolic fashion. In our time together, we looked for ways to bring such an awareness of God's presence to the more day-to-day levels of our lives.
We considered that practices of mindfulness often form the foundation for our awareness of our own gratitude. From a place of gratitude, we can close the loop by expressing our awareness of blessing. Such an expression can take the form of a song, a poem, a thank you note . . . or merely confessing within ourselves, “This moment is a blessing. Glory to God!”
That single spiritual movement of mindfulness-gratitude-expression could provide a fresh way of engaging the Scriptures. We might see the opening of Genesis as a mindfulness exercise on the scale of the universe itself; and Revelation is replete with expressions of doxology. Between the two is a richly textured reading of gratitude dawning.
A related way of processing the Scriptures might be to recognize that, from the first page to the last, God is being named in thousands of subtle ways by a multitude of people in situations from the most joyous to the desperate. We studied and sang how Francis discovered many namings of God and we might be encouraged by his creativity to join in the same. In Genesis 1, for example, we are invited to see God as Universe Unfolder, Light Speaker, Cosmos Framer, Green-Thing Rooter, Ocean Filler, Fin and Flight Propeller, Star Hanger, Animal Shaper, People Molder, and Holy Rester.
Thinking back over our time together, the hike on Beech Mountain seemed to have special resonance with the Franciscan ideals that were on our hearts and minds. At least that was the case for me. I experienced it very much as a hike that was holy, and I cannot begin to think of that sacredness without remembering that it was pursued together. Regardless of the intended content, retreats are largely about the people you share them with. And on that journey, we honored each other’s space and dignity, supported one another’s interests, and fellowshipped through effort and awe.
I started that hike with a search for crosses on the land (what we dubbed the Bishop Ives practice). Soon I noticed a number of recumbent crosses formed by fallen branches. After seeing a series of these, I started to wonder if I might be carrying something I needed to lay down, some cross that might not really be mine to carry. Not long after that, my eyes fell on a moss-covered stone like a table prepared in the forest, a reminder of Divine provision.
Next there was a spontaneous blessing and a blessing of spontaneity. A deer was close to the path and turned towards our group. The deer gazed at us through just a few feet of thicket, seemingly waiting for each of us to have some eye-to-eye time as it shared a benediction of seeing and being seen.
One by one, the members of our group continued along the path to marvel at panoramic vistas, massive trees flourishing atop boulders, and "Zig-Zag" falls.
As our time out drew to a close and the afternoon light cast greater contrasts, I saw more crosses on the land. In some striking cases, they were created by the interplay of the shadows of trees and the intensely lit features of landscape. For me, this brought to mind St. Francis’s mysticism, his conviction that the healing of the land and our lives are inextricably intertwined with the encounter of such brightness and darkness on the Cross.
Perhaps these post-retreat reflections illustrate how the spiritual practices we choose serve like crystals through which the glory of God is refracted to us. And it is my prayer that just the right practices will somehow choose each of us so as to provide the balance we need as we face any shortcomings of institutions, experiences, and culture in our time.
I conclude with St. Clare’s exhortation echoing the grateful expressions of Romans 12 and Leviticus 2.
Praise the Lord with your very life,
offer the Lord your reasonable service,
and your sacrifice always seasoned with salt.
